Overcoming Spiritual Fears: My Journey to Embracing Psychedelic Therapy and Connection to God
- Asttarte Deva
- May 27
- 5 min read

The conversation about psychedelics has changed dramatically in recent years. Once associated primarily with counterculture and rebellion, they are now increasingly recognized for their potential in mental health treatment and spiritual exploration. A considerable factor in this shift is the capacity of psychedelics to help people overcome deep-seated fears, particularly concerning spirituality and a connection to higher powers.
In this post, I share my experiences with the skepticism, fear, and eventual acceptance of psychedelic therapy. My journey has unveiled profound insights into how these substances can deepen one's connection with the divine and with themselves.
Understanding the Fear of Disconnection
Fear can present itself in many ways, and for many individuals, the fear of being disconnected from God or their spiritual essence is overwhelming. Growing up in a community rich in traditional religious beliefs, I was constantly reminded of the sacredness of one's relationship with God. Seeking external help or using substances viewed as harmful was often seen as a threat to that critical connection.
This fear was amplified by stories of individuals who lost their way after experimenting with psychedelics. They were often depicted as wandering souls, devoid of their spiritual paths. Such narratives can create an ingrained belief that any deviation from traditional spirituality, whether through psychedelics or other means, could result in a loss of identity, values, and connection with the divine.
As I wrestled with these tensions within my faith, I often asked myself: “What if I explore these uncharted territories but end up losing my way?”
The Awakening Curiosity
Despite the fears, I developed a strong curiosity about the potential benefits of psychedelic therapy. Anecdotes and studies showed that such experiences could help individuals confront their fears, lead to profound spiritual awakenings, and space for universal connections.
That curiosity pushed me to seek out stories of others who had embarked on similar journeys. A close friend, Clay, shared how his psychedelic journey allowed him to explore spiritual layers he had never considered. Instead of feeling separated from God, he encountered a presence filled with love and acceptance that he previously thought unattainable.
Despite these uplifting narratives, I could not escape my fears. I wondered whether psychedelics could genuinely foster a divine connection or if they merely led to escapism.
The Turning Point: First Encounter with Psychedelics
After months of contemplation and research, I decided to attend a guided psychedelic therapy session. I aimed to approach the experience with an open heart, free from expectations.
The initial moments of taking the substance were nerve-wracking. As the effects began, waves of apprehension washed over me, bringing old fears to the surface. Yet, it was during this discomfort—this emotional turmoil—that I encountered something greater than myself.
Over the next several hours, I navigated various layers of my psyche, facing past pain and deep-rooted insecurities. Surprisingly, within these dark moments, light started to shine through. I felt an intense sense of unity and connection, something I had longed for but had never genuinely experienced before.
A Spiritual Revelation
The revelation was astonishing: my fears about psychedelic therapy were not pulling me away from God but rather guiding me toward a richer understanding of my spirit.
During this session, I encountered a divine essence—an all-knowing presence that reaffirmed my connection to something larger. Instead of breaking my ties with God, psychedelics broadened my understanding of spirituality, emphasizing that exploration could complement rather than limit traditional beliefs.
The experience did not diminish my existing beliefs; instead, it enriched them. I realized that my connection to God could take many forms, including exploring diverse avenues, with psychedelic therapy being a valuable one.
Navigating the Aftermath: Integrating the Experience
Post-session, I faced the challenge of integrating my psychedelic experience into everyday life. The insights were powerful, yet articulating them proved difficult.
To aid this integration, I utilized tools such as journaling, meditation, and community discussions. These activities helped me weave my new insights into my spiritual journey. I participated in dialogues that blended traditional spiritual practices with the revelations gained from my psychedelic experience.
This integration phase offered invaluable lessons; I began to appreciate the beauty of vulnerability, relinquishing rigid beliefs about spirituality, and creating space for diverse interpretations. Engaging with a community open to discussions about psychedelics and spirituality made the journey feel less isolating.
Sharing the Message: Overcoming the Stigma
Sharing my experiences in various forums became a significant part of my journey. I realized that many individuals harbor fears similar to mine. Open conversations surrounding this taboo enabled others to express their fears regarding spirituality and psychedelics.
Discussing my journey not only benefited me but also provided comfort to others grappling with spiritual uncertainties. The prevailing narratives about psychedelics are often negative, rooted in fear and misconceptions. By advocating for the positive aspects, I contribute to a much-needed shift in perspective that emphasizes healing and connection.
It is important to clarify that psychedelic therapies are not a cure-all or a replacement for traditional practices; rather, they can supplement and support individual spiritual exploration in a safe and compassionate way.
The Ongoing Journey
Embracing psychedelic therapy is not a one-time experience but a continuous journey. Each session leads to deeper insights about myself, my relationship with God, and my connection to the universe.
I frequently ask myself: “How can I strengthen this connection even further?” Psychedelic therapy has become a vital part of my spiritual toolkit—a resource to explore the complexities of human experience: suffering, love, and connection.
As I reflect on how far I have come, I am filled with gratitude for the journey that has allowed me to embrace psychedelics as a means of spiritual connection rather than disconnection.
An Invitation to Explore
For those grappling with fears about psychedelic therapy and disconnection from spirituality, I encourage you to consider your own journey.
Reflect on the possibilities for psychedelics to create new pathways to your spirituality rather than diminish them. Approach this exploration with curiosity, seek credible sources, and remain open to integrating various experiences into your understanding of the divine.
While fears rooted in cultural or religious teachings may linger, every powerful story serves as a reminder: Connecting with spirit can take many forms, often requiring us to dismantle the barriers we’ve constructed.
The divine essence is vast, and the potential for healing and connection is transformative. Are you ready to take that leap of faith?
As I continue on this path, I remind myself and others that embracing the journey—regardless of how unconventional it may be—can lead to profound spiritual insights and reconnection with the divine.
Let us join together in this exploration, overcoming spiritual fears and fostering new understandings of spiritual connection.
Overcoming Spiritual Fears: My Journey to Embracing Psychedelic Therapy and Connection to God
